leannie

it's thursday, one day left of the work week. i'm tired, but yet wired, and don't want to go to bed just yet. i just came from having dinner out with friends, and i wish i had never gone. it wasn't bad, but it wasn't good. i can't wait for tomorrow night. i love the weekends. i just love to be social, and see people that i don't work with. if i don't go out then it seems like i interact with the same people for weeks at a time. i can't stand that. i'm a social butterfly lately, and i never thought i would be. i have a boy on his way down here. i'm not sure i'm totally into this boy to commit. he's younger. i shouldn't date younger boys. my mother told me to avoid it. but i do. i guess i'm ignorant like that. he's beautiful but not my type. they never are. i think i'm dating the wrong gender anyway.....

i want to be a suicide girl. but, not just yet. i'm too self conscious and need to lose weight before i pose for pictures. when i do though, i don't want to pose completely nude. sometimes being nude is the most boring thing a person can do. there's no sense of imagination or fantasy left when everything is out in the open. i'd rather wrap myself up in prettiness, showing a little at a time, than just let it all show.

this is all i have for now.....