my whole life i have come up against judgement from people who can't handle my sleep patterns. i tend to sleep very unpredictably, go through phases of insomnia and sleep deprivation, and phases of heavy heavy sleeping.
i love sleeping and i love bed. i have realized in the past few days that my relationship to sleep is very spiritual. i love to dream, i love to read about dreams. i love everything about sleep. i can't really stress this enough, or explain in enough detail the intricate ways i live through sleep. sleep is an active meditation for me, though, filled with lucid dreams and real emotional accomplishment.
i'm starting to get sad because there are only a very few people in my life who can handle it when i'm asleep at odd hours. often in the middle of the day, and not always because i've stayed up late and slept in, but sometimes just because i'm working through an unusual sleep cycle. sometimes i sleep four hours every six hours for days. sometimes i only sleep for two hours a night for three nights then i sleep for 18 hours straight and reset. i love following these circadian whims of mine. it's actually one of the most important things in my life to have total sleep freedom. but it's rare that anyone i've lived with can handle it. people tend to want me to be awake when i'm asleep, and asleep when i'm awake. they don't follow my cycles closely enough to realize i'm not just 'sleeping all the time' or 'a night owl.' it makes me sad and it's really hard for other people to understand. it's a lonely feeling. (tho lately i have felt that everyone is just so judgemental of other people. i wish to live my life in complete and total calm and acceptance. )
after years of battling it i'm beginning to completely honor my relationship to sleep. i am not going to push myself to 'sleep normally' anymore, or feel guilty for how i sleep. i suppose i stopped doing that a while ago, but i'm taking it one step further: seeing my relationship with sleep as a positive and unique quality. i look down on myself as 'lazy' often because i am generally a sleepy slow moving tortoise like person. it's a deliberate way of being in the world tho, and i get such great satisfaction from it. so it's ok right? sleepy le.
i am about to go to sleep right now.
how do you feel about sleep?
i love sleeping and i love bed. i have realized in the past few days that my relationship to sleep is very spiritual. i love to dream, i love to read about dreams. i love everything about sleep. i can't really stress this enough, or explain in enough detail the intricate ways i live through sleep. sleep is an active meditation for me, though, filled with lucid dreams and real emotional accomplishment.
i'm starting to get sad because there are only a very few people in my life who can handle it when i'm asleep at odd hours. often in the middle of the day, and not always because i've stayed up late and slept in, but sometimes just because i'm working through an unusual sleep cycle. sometimes i sleep four hours every six hours for days. sometimes i only sleep for two hours a night for three nights then i sleep for 18 hours straight and reset. i love following these circadian whims of mine. it's actually one of the most important things in my life to have total sleep freedom. but it's rare that anyone i've lived with can handle it. people tend to want me to be awake when i'm asleep, and asleep when i'm awake. they don't follow my cycles closely enough to realize i'm not just 'sleeping all the time' or 'a night owl.' it makes me sad and it's really hard for other people to understand. it's a lonely feeling. (tho lately i have felt that everyone is just so judgemental of other people. i wish to live my life in complete and total calm and acceptance. )
after years of battling it i'm beginning to completely honor my relationship to sleep. i am not going to push myself to 'sleep normally' anymore, or feel guilty for how i sleep. i suppose i stopped doing that a while ago, but i'm taking it one step further: seeing my relationship with sleep as a positive and unique quality. i look down on myself as 'lazy' often because i am generally a sleepy slow moving tortoise like person. it's a deliberate way of being in the world tho, and i get such great satisfaction from it. so it's ok right? sleepy le.
i am about to go to sleep right now.
how do you feel about sleep?
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and i think it's super cool that your lifestyle allows you the freedom to sleep when you're sleepy.
it's just how eating when you're hungry is an important thing, or else risk farting up your metabolism...
sleep is rest for body. and healing time, for sure.
it'd be nice if we could have nap time like in kindergarten...
*sigh*