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been pretty down & lonely. having a hard time getting out of the house to see people, feeling kind of isolated and weird in SF. i've lived here a long time and there have been a lot of changes. not sure where all my old friends are. there used to be a lot of parties, don't know if i got too old to get excited by them, or if they just don't happen anymore. was checking out some sites by burning man enthusiasts online. wondered who they were and who i was when i felt that i had something in common with them. not sure what's going on.

lots of people are coming over for dinner tonight. i'm putting out a vibe of confusion & silence i think. i don't mean to but i'm just feeling sensitive i guess. i want them to want to be around me, which is probably my first mistake.

trying to get excited about cooking for a lot of people... this could make me feel better.

I MISS MY DREADS!!!!! i should get some extensions. olivia?


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later...

I WANT THIS SO BAD!!!!
http://www.griffintechnology.com/products/powerwave/techspecs.html

i could rip all my records to mp3 and dj online if i had it!!!