ldwarren

I still have some connection to this site but it also feels like a bind sometimes. I think the only way I can exist on here without frustrating myself is to reduce my prescence. I feel guilty about having this list of friends that I dont have time to have any quality interaction with. I like everyone on my list (thats why they were there in the first place) but I've become more concious about the difference between typing words to people and real life. THIS SITE IS NOT REAL LIFE. eg:

example 1:
The ex-girlfriend who said I was her best boyfriend ever but can only be bothered to speak to me when she wants sympathy

example 2:
The SG who tells me she genuinely loves me as a friend but cant be bothered to return my emails.

example 3:
The member who kept changing her name on here who told me she was falling in love with me..followed by starting a 'Fuck Bateman' thread months later.

example 4:
The people who leave testimonials to me but cant be asked to even respond to me when I suggest going for a drink

"you act like you're fucking perfect" (trademark - Iggy)

..no, obviously im not. I've shamelessly added girls Ive fancied to my friends list in the past even if I didnt feel much connection to them. I've used online conversations as sexual entertainment in a way that I would never do in real life. So yeah Ive been playing the THIS SITE IS NOT REAL LIFE game too.

This is all very serious so far but really I am very content with myself and happy. Im reading lots of books about psychology, empowering yourself and using your emotions intelligently. I feel as though Ive soothed myself a fair bit and taken the edge off my previous drama queen.

Sooo..back to the original point of all this. Im not using the site as much. My friends list is too big. I like everyone on it but I gotta reduce it.



If you wanna stay on it, let me know...I guess I'll check the list again start of next week...