Thankfully my mood is still quite bright. The last few days I've felt like I've got more energy to clear up stuff and start progressing.
Although the relationship has been over for a bit I think I've struggled to get into the right mindset to move on. The brief communications between me and Iggy have been polite but pretty wary recently and I was concerned that our closeness as friends might drift away whilst we struggled with some of the awkwardness of it all.
We talked today and it was so much better and Im sure we are gonna be close like we always have been. It means a lot to me and I feel as though a lot of things have been resolved in my head.
I still love her as a girlfriend and part of the problem I've had is that I havent really worked out what to do with that love. Destroying it seemed wrong so (like the Bjork song) I will lull it to sleep and keep it in a hidden place. Only fate knows whether it will ever need to be awoken.
I didnt end the relationship but I've felt guilty about the possibility of being more sexual towards other women, as if by doing so I was saying that going out with Iggy meant nothing, which couldnt be further from the truth.
I guess in times of change things are confusing until you re-adjust to everything again and form your new reality.
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Hexe left me a random message yesterday saying she has seen my comments around and thinks I'm clever..I wonder how many journal entries will it take for her to wise up..
Although the relationship has been over for a bit I think I've struggled to get into the right mindset to move on. The brief communications between me and Iggy have been polite but pretty wary recently and I was concerned that our closeness as friends might drift away whilst we struggled with some of the awkwardness of it all.
We talked today and it was so much better and Im sure we are gonna be close like we always have been. It means a lot to me and I feel as though a lot of things have been resolved in my head.
I still love her as a girlfriend and part of the problem I've had is that I havent really worked out what to do with that love. Destroying it seemed wrong so (like the Bjork song) I will lull it to sleep and keep it in a hidden place. Only fate knows whether it will ever need to be awoken.
I didnt end the relationship but I've felt guilty about the possibility of being more sexual towards other women, as if by doing so I was saying that going out with Iggy meant nothing, which couldnt be further from the truth.
I guess in times of change things are confusing until you re-adjust to everything again and form your new reality.
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Hexe left me a random message yesterday saying she has seen my comments around and thinks I'm clever..I wonder how many journal entries will it take for her to wise up..
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baise:
Wow, I look French? While I do love the French (they like cheese, wine, and funny hats, which are all perfectly noble pursuits), I have never been taken for a French woman. In fact, I don't think there's any French in my ancestry at all. I always thought I looked Anglo-Saxon as hell, but I guess I'm wrong about that. 
someoneuk:
yup. Both I guess 