Ok I owe myself and everyone else a happy journal. As someone who is generally a happy person (65% silly child 35% gloomy doubt-ridden pain) the last week drained me and made me flick through a lot of negative emotions but I do feel a lot better today. When you are down you appreciate support from people and people on my friends list are really good to me.
For most of my life I have never really thought about what being a man means. The fact that im a man seemed pretty irrelevant to me as I've hardly betrayed much stereotypical laddish behaviour in my life:
Ive never been in a fight
I've never cheated on a girlfriend
Ive had sexual feelings for males
Ive slept with a handful of girls only
I like music like Juliana Hatfield, Fiona Apple
Im very non-aggressive and anti-confrontational
I dont think any of this makes me more or less of a man. I dont know, its not something I consider, I know who I am and my gender is just a side point, I view it the same way as I view my nationality..the fact that I'm English doesnt define me in any way, its not something I would ever feel particularly proud or shamed by. How can you be proud or shamed by something you have had no control over?
On my last journal there was a response sayng 'emo emo emo' and it was meant as a joke and I take it that way too. If you said define your personality within 5 words then emotional would be in there. But it still made me consider how weird it is that a buzzword even exists for it. If I had written the same journal word-for-word and been a female then I doubt the emo comment would have been there. Am I the only one who finds that weird?
Its still a man's world, I know that. Men are repressed emotionally, either stifling themselves or by society finding male emotion rather disturbing..but women are repressed in every other way. Its crap, I know but i didnt make them rules and I dont abide by them..never should you, whatever gender you are. I sometimes think i should have been born hundreds of years in the future cos I dream of a more liberal world where things like age, race, sex have become more redundant. It probably wont happen as history teaches us that there is always war, always conflict..Im a dreamer and a cynic and that why I identify with people like Juliana Hatfield, John Lennon, etc.
I dont want any of this to appear angry cos its really not, I was gonna just do a short entry about how i was happier and then i just got stuck into this gender thing
Ok rant over, feel free to post abuse..
..Im off to play on the playstation for a bit cos if there is one label that I can probably accept is that Im a geek. hehe
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I love you Iggy
For most of my life I have never really thought about what being a man means. The fact that im a man seemed pretty irrelevant to me as I've hardly betrayed much stereotypical laddish behaviour in my life:
Ive never been in a fight
I've never cheated on a girlfriend
Ive had sexual feelings for males
Ive slept with a handful of girls only
I like music like Juliana Hatfield, Fiona Apple
Im very non-aggressive and anti-confrontational
I dont think any of this makes me more or less of a man. I dont know, its not something I consider, I know who I am and my gender is just a side point, I view it the same way as I view my nationality..the fact that I'm English doesnt define me in any way, its not something I would ever feel particularly proud or shamed by. How can you be proud or shamed by something you have had no control over?
On my last journal there was a response sayng 'emo emo emo' and it was meant as a joke and I take it that way too. If you said define your personality within 5 words then emotional would be in there. But it still made me consider how weird it is that a buzzword even exists for it. If I had written the same journal word-for-word and been a female then I doubt the emo comment would have been there. Am I the only one who finds that weird?
Its still a man's world, I know that. Men are repressed emotionally, either stifling themselves or by society finding male emotion rather disturbing..but women are repressed in every other way. Its crap, I know but i didnt make them rules and I dont abide by them..never should you, whatever gender you are. I sometimes think i should have been born hundreds of years in the future cos I dream of a more liberal world where things like age, race, sex have become more redundant. It probably wont happen as history teaches us that there is always war, always conflict..Im a dreamer and a cynic and that why I identify with people like Juliana Hatfield, John Lennon, etc.
I dont want any of this to appear angry cos its really not, I was gonna just do a short entry about how i was happier and then i just got stuck into this gender thing
Ok rant over, feel free to post abuse..

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I love you Iggy
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