So it's my ex-girlfriend's birthday today. That must be why God has decreed the weather for today is so poor. haha.
Actually thats mean I dont resent her (I literally feel nothing towards her at all) and I hope she is OK. I knew her for 10 years and went out with her for 7 so its bullshit to make out that we didnt share good times in the past.
I dont miss her at all, the bloody ending to it all made sure of that, but it has got me thinking about how Ive changed since we have split up. Im more mature now (hopefully in a good way) and I can realise, that looking back, the relationship was fading into nothing. We both loved each other but became complacent. Complacent towards each other and yet also relying on each other's company at all times when we should have been going out together and enjoying the company of other friends. It created a pressure that exploded in our faces.
I dont think its an exagerration to say that I have developed into a new person since the break-up. I lost my lover of 7 years, my best friend of 12 years and the house I lived in so..it was dramatic. But it was also pretty liberating and I suddently had no reason to keep things in my life that I wasnt happy with. I only surround myself with people that I trust now and although Im probably more wary about people, I am better at expressing my feelings for people that matter to me.
..and finally thank fuck I dont have to listen to her Fleetwood Mac records anymore..
Actually thats mean I dont resent her (I literally feel nothing towards her at all) and I hope she is OK. I knew her for 10 years and went out with her for 7 so its bullshit to make out that we didnt share good times in the past.
I dont miss her at all, the bloody ending to it all made sure of that, but it has got me thinking about how Ive changed since we have split up. Im more mature now (hopefully in a good way) and I can realise, that looking back, the relationship was fading into nothing. We both loved each other but became complacent. Complacent towards each other and yet also relying on each other's company at all times when we should have been going out together and enjoying the company of other friends. It created a pressure that exploded in our faces.
I dont think its an exagerration to say that I have developed into a new person since the break-up. I lost my lover of 7 years, my best friend of 12 years and the house I lived in so..it was dramatic. But it was also pretty liberating and I suddently had no reason to keep things in my life that I wasnt happy with. I only surround myself with people that I trust now and although Im probably more wary about people, I am better at expressing my feelings for people that matter to me.
..and finally thank fuck I dont have to listen to her Fleetwood Mac records anymore..
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got you text tonight...i was working all day sorry i wasn't around.
yeah i think you are better off without your ex personally, but i think that that is a selfish opinion on my part.