Things have really changed. I moved from Calgary to Vancouver last month, which I've dreamed about since high school but somehow was never the right choice at the time. I was born and raised nearby and it's always felt like home to me. I hope to stay past our 4 month lease and find another place, but things are never very certain when you're a self-employed artist living with another self-employed artist. We don't have rich parents or jobs on the side or anything like that, so we rely on our own creativity and serendipity to connect with the right people. I love the freedom and adventures that come with this, but new starts can be challenging. I'm feeling tired but optimistic.
It's interesting how busy things have been since coming here. There hasn't been a period of being an unknown stranger, like with most big moves. I seem to have way more friends here, and have had many out of town friends visit already. It's felt like coming home after way too long away.
Between all the fun things and stressful things I've been pretty sick for most of the last week. I managed to shoot an amazing set with @dwam though! (Outtake above) My health has really improved in the last year but apparently I can still break. I may have set myself back a bunch, but after the recent episodes I have pretty strong motivation to not slip up with diet or overdoing it! I spent all of Christmas Day in bed in a lot of pain, and couldn't go to brunch or dinner plans. I don't want to do that anymore.
My health issues may be the best thing that's ever happened to me though. They've completely taken me off a path that was wrong for me. I started meditating, which was huge. That is something that changes you profoundly. I had the time to read every book I felt like reading. I wrote a lot. I shifted the focus of my entire life from survival to love and magic. I learned more in the last year or two than probably my whole life before that. My old belief systems have been tested and shattered. My new ones have been tested and solidified. It's still a bit strange though. I realized I'm way weirder than I let on, and letting go of the fear of being myself is probably my biggest quest currently. I'm partway there. This is probably my goal for 2014: reinvention and authenticity. Even if it scares the crap out of you all. ;)
