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Things have really changed. I moved from Calgary to Vancouver last month, which I've dreamed about since high school but somehow was never the right choice at the time. I was born and raised nearby and it's always felt like home to me. I hope to stay past our 4 month lease and find another place, but things are never very certain when you're a
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midnightrider454:
This blog is amazing. I this new journey gives you all you need :)
kspec:
You are so stunningly beautiful
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Winter Solstice is here, the shortest day of the year for those of us in the northern hemisphere. It’s a perfect time to explore dark and hidden aspects of yourself, and perhaps try some rituals to release the things that no longer serve you. Reflect on the good things you’d like to manifest as the days lengthen and the light returns. Bring a new positivity
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michaelmonroemorrison:
This is so beautiful. 
dwam:
Strangely, this is exactly what Solstice did to me. Kinda forced me to release so many aspect of my life. Hard lesson. 
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True love is compassionate, unconditional, and unlimited. It doesn't include desire or attachment; it requires no outside fulfillment. It is our natural state if we remove all the false beliefs that obscure it. Love yourself. Be love.

From Tumblr

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ajinoz:
you my friend are a total spiritual badass
cassiel:
I hope you are collecting these into a book. :-)
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If you want to change things about yourself, that's great! Just know that you're already perfect. You're an immensely powerful being that has forgotten who you really are, buying into a painful illusion for a time. "Improving" yourself just means remembering all the greatness that is already inside you.

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rejoyce:
i need this tattooed on the inside of my eyelids. your insight is greatly appreciated.
seaside_:
<3
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Pain is a powerful ally. Physically, it tells us when there is something wrong in our body that needs attention, like a ruptured appendix, infection, or broken bone. In this way pain is not the problem, only the messenger, but we often choose to treat only the pain and leave the root cause unaddressed. Emotional pain is the same. Instead of numbing it or ignoring
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teddykev:
Respect & Praise be to you friend:)
suicidecitizen:
Definitely something I needed to hear today. Your blogs hit mean the feels. Thanks for being you. <3
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I'm painting my bathroom and bedroom right now in preparation for subletting, then off to Vancouver! Drastic changes all around, and all good.

PS: my instagram is @lavonnesuicide

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dwam:
soon ! I'm super excited to meet you at last
sairyn:
So cute!
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There you go! Shots by Vanessa DeZutter. :)


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baxter:
Stunning
marlowi:
Amazing!
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Here's a shot from a recent modelling job by Vanessa DeZutter. Want to see more?

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lord_renob:
Gorgeous!
joker:
goddess! <3 you're amazing! 
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I don't feel depressed very often anymore. Looking back, I can see the causes with more clarity, and have found strategies to dissipate it when I need to.

Like everyone else, I collected a lot of emotional garbage throughout my life. Some from trauma, some from fears, some from simple everyday struggles I just didn't want to face. I learned to cope by numbing myself
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aeterna:
This feels way too familiar... thank you for sharing.
oiiboy:
Wow...its very encouraging to me and redeeming for you to share that. It sounded so familiar that I just can't believe it. I used to, and still do at times, find myself going numb and emotionless because of pain, memories and the past and even present . I realized at some point that I wasn't able to feel the good things either, and when I started feeling again, it was overwhelming. I went through extreme depression at one point, but I think that that was just part if feeling again. Anyways, I just want to thank you for sharing something so deep and personal here! 
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It was my birthday a few weeks ago and for once it seemed like a significant event. I've overcome many challenges have made big changes. I feel like a totally different person. After years of being too ill to work, spending much of my time reading and meditating and searching for the answers to my problems, I've decided to shift my focus from a career...
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lavonne:
Good point! @BDBERNCRAFT 
oiiboy:
I'm just really admiring you as I go through here...wow...that's what  I came to as well. No matter how bad the past was, I can exchange it, redeem it for good now by using it to help others. Your amazing..ok so maybe I'm biased because you sound like me but still the point is valid! ;)
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The answer to all our problems is simple: it is always love. Love others, love yourself, love your life, love the lessons, love the pain, do what you love, be more loving, be love. And do this so unconditionally that you would let others choose otherwise and still love them.

Photo: @malloreigh and @rin by me.

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teddykev:
Thanks a bunch Mademoiselle  I needed that:)
bendingunit23:
Great photo, I miss her