lavinia

I'd like to thank SGBC for last night. These days getting me out of my apartment is a really hard thing to do.

I am not the same person I use to be. I'm really withdrawn and anti-social. I feel like all the positive energy I had last year was sucked dry from me. Actually, I basically gave it all away to one person and left nothing for my self.

Why did I give it all away? I thought he needed it and I thought he would return it back to me when I needed it. I guess I was dead wrong on that one. Note to self for next time....don't do that again.

Now I am alone and I am in a constant struggle to keep my head above water. At times I feel like I am loosing the battle and that is starting to scare me.