CJ broke up with me last night. This time it's for good. I am in so much pain it is unbareable.
I just keep crying and crying. I feel like the tears won't stop. My heart has been split open and the feeling is killing me inside.
I still love him and I want him to know that. I hope that we will be able to friends. I do need time to heal but, I don't want him to be out of my life. I can't picture my life with out him in some way being in it. I hope this good-bye isn't forever.
I know that I wanted more than he was willing or able to give. And it hurt when he couldn't give me what I needed. That's when my insecurities would come out and in the end the insecurities got the best of me.
This birthday of mine won't be a happy one.
I miss him so much.
"I so hate to make people sad. Hate it.
Even people I don't know, I'll feel bad for it if I know I've somehow made them sad. But when it comes to people I really care about, it's so much worse. Almost unbearable.
Sometimes, however, its simply the harsh result of doing the right thing.-Pica_Pica
I just keep crying and crying. I feel like the tears won't stop. My heart has been split open and the feeling is killing me inside.
I still love him and I want him to know that. I hope that we will be able to friends. I do need time to heal but, I don't want him to be out of my life. I can't picture my life with out him in some way being in it. I hope this good-bye isn't forever.
I know that I wanted more than he was willing or able to give. And it hurt when he couldn't give me what I needed. That's when my insecurities would come out and in the end the insecurities got the best of me.
This birthday of mine won't be a happy one.
I miss him so much.
"I so hate to make people sad. Hate it.
Even people I don't know, I'll feel bad for it if I know I've somehow made them sad. But when it comes to people I really care about, it's so much worse. Almost unbearable.
Sometimes, however, its simply the harsh result of doing the right thing.-Pica_Pica
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I'd offer my assistance, but I have none to give. Much like some of those I thought were my friends. Don't take that as a stab at you, it isn't.
I'm alone and in therapy right now. I suggest the same for you. Regardless of the financial difficulty it may bring.
Best wishes, as much as can be.
Pica_pica is so wise! I can't wait until I'm as old as he is and I can be that wise. Motherfucker!
I'd love my DVD back. You wanna grab coffee sometime?