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Monday Nov 07, 2005

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PART I- The High

Last night I performed the music I have been working on for the first time at an Open Mic Night!!!

The location was the Coppertank Grill on West Broadway. It was a night of me and my guitar. I sang/played two of my original songs and one cover (Depeche Mode's "I Want Now").

A few of my friends and surprisingly some co-workers came out to support me. I havent felt this good in ages!

Some people called, emailed and text messaged me that they could not make the event for many different reasons. I wasn't mad. I was actually happy.

The thing that made me feel happy about their messages and phone calls was that they all wished me luck and wanted to know when Ill be playing again. These are the people I would call my real friends. They are honest, trust worthy and considerate. I love these people.

Theyll come out and see me play at another time. You know what? Im cool with that.


PART II- Cleaning House

Today I have decided to Clean House. This means I will be getting rid of the people who have been flaky friends. They didnt enter my life as a Flaky Person. They had sincerity, compassion, empathy and honesty. These are people who I have considered to be very close to me over the years, they have become a part of my family and I have felt so much joy being a part of their lives.

I have listened to them when they have cried on my shoulder and I have helped them when they have been really down. I have gone to their art openings and special events where they have showcased their talents. I have stroked their egos, told them that they arent bad people just misunderstood, I have held their hands and their hearts when they have needed it the most. I havent asked for anything in return when they have had their joys or been going through their pains.

These people knew I was performing and presenting what I hold dear to me in front of an audience for the first time. Some of them said, Yeah I know the place and Ill be there or Ill be there to cheer you on for sure. Last night I was hoping a few of these people would have shown up to support me and that did not happen. This really, really hurt and disappointed me. Some of them could have at the least left me a message of some sort (i.e. VIA Email, text message or email) that could have said, Im sorry I cant make it tonight. Break a leg while you are up there. I received none of the above.

So, in light of my discovery of these flaky people I have decided to remove them from my life. Yes! I am cleaning house and feeling good about it!

I am just sick and tired of giving, giving, and not being given a small dose of respect or consideration in return.


Next Open Mic Night will be Sunday Nov. 13th at the Coppertank Grill (3135 West Broadway). The show starts at 8:30 p.m.
VIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
s_eldorado:
Hey you, I realize you are playing tonight but we've got this thing on at the Morrissey for Rin at 9:30pm.

So if you're done early, you should come and hang out!

And you can be done early if you go and sign up early. Hint hint.
Nov 13, 2005
hethral:
I talked to dino earlier this week and he had some good things to say about your playing there. He also said to make sure you keep at it. So yah, keep at it.

Do you know what order you're going to be on tonight? Best of luck if I don't see you there.
Nov 13, 2005

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