A year on.....

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So today is the day it's been exactly one year since my life changed forever, my ex committed suicide, I really don't know how to take today because it is just another day, and in a matter of hours it will be over. I feel like this is the last hurdle then I've done it, if I can make through a year I can keep on going.

When it happened I had to sleep on my sisters sofa for 3 months because I had nowhere else to go, I had to phone companies and explain what he had done to try and get some of the fraudulent debt he opened in my name cleared, his parents cut me out and blamed me saying if I'd have done more he'd still be here, but one year on and I have learnt to live on my own, I've started paying off the debts so I can move forward, I've reconnected with people I never thought I'd speak to again and even though I still can't process it, and can't really comprehend that he isn't here anymore I'm stronger than I ever have been.

I know what I want in life and I'm not going to compromise anymore, I don't want what he did to define me, I'm my own person.

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ollyp:
But these things are easy to say, but harder to feel. It sounds like you're on the right track. Much love and hugs, and keep moving onwards and upwards!
chefexcellence:
It's good to hear that you have come this far. I actually had an ex commit identify theft on me. Fortunately there were no debts but she did use my name on a rental property and now I have an eviction on my credit report. I obviously don't know anything about the situation but from what he did to you it sounds like a good thing that he was an ex. Of course the family is going to blame you and the sad thing is that you probably did more to help him then they ever did. It really sucks that you have to clean up the mess that he made of your life but consider it a learning experience. 

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