Home alone on a Sunday morning. There are many, many things I should be doing with my time today but not really much I can do until the boy gets home.
We're moving this week, so not only will we not have the internet for a while but I really, really can't believe I am doing this again. I hate moving so much, it's not even through choice on this occasion, the landlord wants to sell the flat and decided he can't do that with us being in it so we were given our notice. We are leaving the city centre now, I am going to miss it a lot, we're trading in our tiny little one bed flat for a big 2 bed terraced house on the outskirts. I'm nervous, I haven't lived in a house since I left my parents and this one is kinda old so I'm worried a lot could go wrong with it - then again not much has gone right with this place and it's only 5 years old! The main thing that makes me sad about leaving it though is that it's the first place me and the boy got together so it does have that sentiment attached to it.
Not having a car makes moving even more difficult so we're having to do it a little at a time. One of my work colleagues is coming over on tuesday to help move the bulk of it, then once that's done I need to get the cleaners in and sort out all the bills - my god this week is going to be a head fuck!
Speaking of headfucks this whole year has been nothing but one massive one. Nothing has gone smoothly, it has been one big jinx. I do apologise for the whiney blog today but I'm just feeling a bit down about everything, working 7 day weeks has left me exhausted and I'm still not as financially straight as I'd like to be. I can't say no to anyone either, I really must learn how to do that. I can't remember the last time I had any hours left in the day to just chill and not feel guilty about it. So I have decided with this move there are going to be some changes. Firstly, I am going to give up wedding photography, it's stressful, there is no value in it and I am really starting to resent giving up my weekends for people who don't really seem to care if I'm there or not.
Secondly I have decided that career wise, E-Commerce is the way to go, its steady and stable work with a definite pay check at the end of the month, now I have the experience all I need is to find a position that pays more than my current job. Come the new year I want to start doing more things for myself. I really feel life has held me back a lot over the last few years so starting from January I promise I am going to start being kinder to myself and not worry about other people so much, I want to get back to exercising first of all as I have been majorly neglecting my health, I want to have more spontaneous weekends and hell I wouldn't even mind seeing a bit more of the world while I'm at it!
Anyway I am going to stop now, there is so much to do today and I really need to make a start. love to you all and for now I leave you with this!
We're moving this week, so not only will we not have the internet for a while but I really, really can't believe I am doing this again. I hate moving so much, it's not even through choice on this occasion, the landlord wants to sell the flat and decided he can't do that with us being in it so we were given our notice. We are leaving the city centre now, I am going to miss it a lot, we're trading in our tiny little one bed flat for a big 2 bed terraced house on the outskirts. I'm nervous, I haven't lived in a house since I left my parents and this one is kinda old so I'm worried a lot could go wrong with it - then again not much has gone right with this place and it's only 5 years old! The main thing that makes me sad about leaving it though is that it's the first place me and the boy got together so it does have that sentiment attached to it.
Not having a car makes moving even more difficult so we're having to do it a little at a time. One of my work colleagues is coming over on tuesday to help move the bulk of it, then once that's done I need to get the cleaners in and sort out all the bills - my god this week is going to be a head fuck!
Speaking of headfucks this whole year has been nothing but one massive one. Nothing has gone smoothly, it has been one big jinx. I do apologise for the whiney blog today but I'm just feeling a bit down about everything, working 7 day weeks has left me exhausted and I'm still not as financially straight as I'd like to be. I can't say no to anyone either, I really must learn how to do that. I can't remember the last time I had any hours left in the day to just chill and not feel guilty about it. So I have decided with this move there are going to be some changes. Firstly, I am going to give up wedding photography, it's stressful, there is no value in it and I am really starting to resent giving up my weekends for people who don't really seem to care if I'm there or not.
Secondly I have decided that career wise, E-Commerce is the way to go, its steady and stable work with a definite pay check at the end of the month, now I have the experience all I need is to find a position that pays more than my current job. Come the new year I want to start doing more things for myself. I really feel life has held me back a lot over the last few years so starting from January I promise I am going to start being kinder to myself and not worry about other people so much, I want to get back to exercising first of all as I have been majorly neglecting my health, I want to have more spontaneous weekends and hell I wouldn't even mind seeing a bit more of the world while I'm at it!
Anyway I am going to stop now, there is so much to do today and I really need to make a start. love to you all and for now I leave you with this!
If I lived close to you I would have helped you move.
I know how you feel, this has been a tuff year in a lot of ways, we all need to get this stuff off of our chests from time to time, so don't feel bad about it. Around here wedding photography is big business, I know a girl who gets $2,500 for one wedding and I know of some that ask for even more.
I hope you find a job that pays well and that you like, I hope everything in life turns around.