lauralily

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!![/

I'm on the verge of writing a good and proper update here so firstly I apologise for STILL having no internet at home and therefore the lack of commenty goodness I have been leaving in your journals, this does not mean I'm not interested in any of you because I am, I just have extremely crappy circumstances lately.

Has everybody got LauraLily's magic day posted on their calendar yet? If not its November 23rd - one year in remission and can finally get off evil crappy medication and hope my body will go back to normal, this is a really big thing for me so i hope you will share in my joy if/when this momentus occasion does happen for me.

Ah yes I'm back at uni and it is strangling my positive mood already, I hate my course its just not working for me but its either stick it out so i can be near Mr Gregory or transfer to somewhere where you have a little more freedom and a little less boring course, hmmm we'll have to think about that one, hopefully vision 2006 will answer it for me.

Even so Mr Gregory and I have been in a very positive mood lately as things are happening for us, mainly we've found the motivation we both badly need to get up and make things happen for us, Mr Gregory is now on his plumbing foundation course ready to start back at college full time next year and by the time we both have finished we hope to move away from boring old Devon for a while and make lots of money - well thats thats the plan anyway.

My friend who is 9 months pregnant came down to visit this week, I was so excited to see her but it turned out to be another classic case of 'friends' letting me down, its the first time I've seen her since I've had good news and i hoped she might be happy for me but instead she just talked right over me about herself and her difficult pregnancy which I sympathise with but what I don't sympathise with is the way she banged on about how much weight she's gained, I felt hurt because she knows I went through hell with my weight last year and I have nothing to show for it plus half of it is still clinging to me, I wonder if she realises she's probably going to push most of that weight through her cervix in a few weeks time and at least she won't have a defunct metabolism to stop her losing the rest. I know pregnancy is an exciting time, but tell me are all pregnant women so selfish they literally can't see past their baby bumps? (Apart from you Elysia!)

Anyway such incident has reminded me why I quite like being on my own a lot these days, don't know if thats healthy or not but hey, no disappointment or whatever so hmm nevermind. God I sound so selfish sometimes, maybe I expect too much from people, maybe thats what my problem is.

Ah well I still have lots of exciting stuff to look forward to in the next few months so woo and yay to that.