lastserenade

So I just had a strange scenario happen, a girl I had been very much into(but multiple times has turned me down in favor of some douchebag, and lately had been very shitty to me) posted some ordeal on myspace about he now ex and how awful shit was. The fact is I felt bad, and I fucking hate that. I want to be a...
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so I had a huge drawn out blog until internet explorer shit itself and deleted everything


so fuck it Im not typing it again, if you wanna chat message me and Ill give the details of what it wouldve said

amidst a long fucking week, which will probably be followed by a longer one, uuuuuuuuuuuugh


well in 18 days is my friends wedding, that should be fun(well hopefully at least, though theyre pretty much the only couple I approve of getting married, because they really have taken it seriously)



Ive been reading alot lately, just kinda happened as such


I think thats it, maybe more...
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1st off congrats Nova on getting to the Final 4, that game was a real nail biter




Im finding it ALOT easier not to drink now(likes it not even a challenge anymore, once in awhile Id like a beer or a cocktail, but Ive pretty much dimished the urge to be wasted)

went book shopping yesterday, along with some Watchmen paraphenailia(set of buttons and the...
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I think I really need to get out more often


but Ive seen some health and financial benefits from not drinking

its months away, but Im already planning for my 25th birthday(Metallica at Madison Square Garden, damn that's epic)

ehhhhh thats kind of it right now, hopefully go out and do something this weekend

I think Ive finally come to terms with the fact that Im screwed up

pretty much things can be fine and then randomly Ill get this rush of sickness over me regarding the past couple years and all that shit thats happened, this usually makes me angry and sometimes even dizzy and nauseas(yeah normal right?) so that's been pretty fucked up


Ive also pretty much...
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Saturday was a complete mindfuck, I ended up at a party where everyone there fell into one of these catagories:
1) I had never met them before
2) I hadnt seen them in literally 15 years




oddly enough it went pretty well, it was nice to reconnect with some people(and apparently meet new ones, mostly being female oddly enough)

yeah the fact that Ive ran...
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I keep having dreams where Im randomly back in HS or College(but being a dream not everything actually makes sense, usually gets weird), its a weird feeling because I know its because there are things I wish could have gone differently, but nothing I can do about that now


randomly met 2 girls at the show last night(one being single, the other not so much)...
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going to Camden tonight for these bands










should be a fun time

so Ive basically been in a perpetually shitty mood lately(and yes most of it is women related, that just keeps getting added on to) and Im kind of tired of it, but nothings really coming along and aiding me in feeling better


Im also finding myself less and less interested in drinking, Im starting to have the same mindset I had in High School when...
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