So I found out today that one of my college profesors passed away, thats kind of fucked. He was young so it is a huge suprise. It was a strange thing, nice guy, but I had the hardest time when in his courses(one I even had to drop when the people I was working on it with bailed on me). It was definately a time of major frustration, but he clearly believed in what he was teaching and played a big part in getting people in my major doing more digital work. He will be missed, I havent heard much else, but it is a bit of a shock(I hadnt spoken to him in like 2 years, I always felt like I needed to accomplish more before I got back in touch with him, and well, that wont be happening now). I guess this just brings back the "life is short" thing, and to make the best of things while you can.
I also found out my friend who at 24 already has a daughter now has another child(his ex-very deceptive-got knocked up right before they split and never told him). So now before hes 25 he has 2 kids, and is in an awful situation(the Lord only knows how he'll go on with all of this).
I did go out again last now on the now ritualistic night of wings and beer, and that has honestly been a nice change. Im spending time with people who still want to go out and live their lives(and meeting new people aswell). Of course I also saw the guy who was dating the girl I liked that was a massive tease(this has been brought up alot in past blogs) and holy shit this guy is a scumbag, astounding really. But otherwise I like having these nights because I honestly was feeling like total shit lately, and the lack of social outings was infact causing that(a big part being my engaged friend who pretty much just wants to sit around drinking, and thats it, depresses the shit outve me). I dont know, the one thing for sure is that these nights out have really picked me up when Ive all around been feeling like shit. This and me beating the shit outve myself in the gym(I need to get it together, and Im trying, even have my own medicine ball).
So yeah, I think after a slew of events that have went down lately its time for change and getting shit together. I see now that theres no time but now. It all is bringing me back to a reading I had when I was about 19, the women read me and said "one day people will say they were wrong about you, you will prove it to them", and now's the time.
I also found out my friend who at 24 already has a daughter now has another child(his ex-very deceptive-got knocked up right before they split and never told him). So now before hes 25 he has 2 kids, and is in an awful situation(the Lord only knows how he'll go on with all of this).
I did go out again last now on the now ritualistic night of wings and beer, and that has honestly been a nice change. Im spending time with people who still want to go out and live their lives(and meeting new people aswell). Of course I also saw the guy who was dating the girl I liked that was a massive tease(this has been brought up alot in past blogs) and holy shit this guy is a scumbag, astounding really. But otherwise I like having these nights because I honestly was feeling like total shit lately, and the lack of social outings was infact causing that(a big part being my engaged friend who pretty much just wants to sit around drinking, and thats it, depresses the shit outve me). I dont know, the one thing for sure is that these nights out have really picked me up when Ive all around been feeling like shit. This and me beating the shit outve myself in the gym(I need to get it together, and Im trying, even have my own medicine ball).
So yeah, I think after a slew of events that have went down lately its time for change and getting shit together. I see now that theres no time but now. It all is bringing me back to a reading I had when I was about 19, the women read me and said "one day people will say they were wrong about you, you will prove it to them", and now's the time.
kay:
Life is too short. Fo sho!