Sunday Oct 19, 2003

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I don't remember just when life became such a damn chore. I can't remember what it was like, but I know I haven't always felt like this. The anxiety of my youth was always very intense but it was quickly forgotten. Bullies, school, being caught in a lie those where the fears of my youth. They had names. Now I have nameless fears, and they never go away, and they're never fully here. My adult anxiety just looms in the shadows,the distant. It is always there always waiting. and I'm left wondering just what will cause it to spring forth from the shadows and devour me.

Got me an Xbox yesterday. I really couldn't afford it, but hell that never stopped me before. Now I have my own Halo! MMmmmmm.......Yesss!

Chatted with a friend of mine online today. She's losing her love of comics. I told her to try and remember what made her fall in love with the medium. Please God, don't let her stop loving comics.

Watched the "what if machine" episode of Futurama. I love that episode. Best part, Giant Bender throwing Giant Zoidberg into the stadium of boiling water( that goes out to #1 lobster killer Kealli)

Blarg!!
toiletooth:
" Chatted with a friend of mine online today. She's losing her love of comics. I told her to try and remember what made her fall in love with the medium. Please God, don't let her stop loving comics"


that, exactly, is how you stay in love with people, too.


as far as the anxiety.
that just goes more and more away as we get older. things that make you happy make the anxiety go away. coffee makes it go up. lack of vitamin B makes it go up. hanging out with the wrong people makes it worse, while friends make it better. detaching yourself from daily shallow drama makes it better. new love. new things, the spice of life. that makes it better, too..
but i still suffer from it, but i think i got reigns on that hell-bitch....she's mine, now.


good luck.

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