I'm moving to Colorado by December.
I have so much to tell you guys, I am so sorry I haven't written a blog in so long my life has been this huge whirlwind for the past couple of months.
June was amazing, I got to go to Mountain Jam for my birthday and Disc Jam shortly after. The Gemini cycle was definitely a blessed one for me.
July, I got to spend a lot of time visiting home and with my family. It also aided the beginning of my spiritual awakening.
It also brought tension, aloneness, and discord in what I once thought to be a harmonious relationship. A relationship the Sun shone on. Somehow in this we both stopped using our own light and began to rely on one another's.
Its hard loving and loving and feeling more coldness as the days go by. It's hard breaking up when you live with them. You see this whole other side of them and yourself and it makes you dislike both. This has been a learning experience. I know who I am, and what I need to do. And moving to Colorado is something I was called to do 4 years ago, I felt the pull in my heart and visiting that year only confirmed it was to be my home. I put my life on hold for too many people and through this I've realized I can't do that. I've found the path that found me years ago, and I'm glad to be walking it once again. And feel the pull that I thought was lost It was only faint but is again ringing loud and clear.
Currently, I'm working towards becoming a vegetarian. I plan to do this over the course of the next few years as to not damage my body. I consider myself to be pollo-pescatarian at the moment, eating no red meats. So far I have gone 1 month without And I'm very proud of myself, I've already started to feel and look better. I've been hooping a lot and trying to stay positive through this whole journey; no matter how dark the tunnel, I know it's not a cave. Its been really hard at times, night time is the worst, and in passing of seeing each other; both our hearts hurt, but I know we will become better people. And if our paths cross again who knows who we will be. I'm moving into a New apartment for the time being, to clear my head before I move. And if we can't learn to use our own light And love one another as we once did, or to even be friends with one another in this time apart then all we can do is live, learn, and grow from This. And I'll still love him everyday.
