So I failed a suicide attempt today. I've just got back from the hospital. I don't really how know I feel about it all. I wnt downstairs and mum could see I was upset. She eveutally got it out me that I'd taken a load of sleeping pills. Ambulance arrived in seconds. I was angry cos it was wasted on me.. someone who wanted to...
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I'm going down again. I may just stay there this time. I'm sick of this viscious cycle and i can't do it anymore
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liv:
just think this... as shitty u feel now... there the reverse... like a coin... just "let the poison go" like the black crowes would say
ortus:
Feel better soon, love.
We survived, by the way.
We survived, by the way.
Amsterdam people, how easy it is to get work out there at the moment?
I want to bake a Christmas cake today, but there's the task of venturing out into the rank, cold weather to get the ingredients.
I'm thinking about redoing my undercut as well. Mr loverman really doesn't want me to though. But the growing back bit looks really disgusting at the mo, and cos my hair is kinda short it's really visible. I think it'd be...
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I'm thinking about redoing my undercut as well. Mr loverman really doesn't want me to though. But the growing back bit looks really disgusting at the mo, and cos my hair is kinda short it's really visible. I think it'd be...
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darkriver:
MMMMMMMMM Cake!!! 
liv:
the growing part is the most disturbing ...specially when u dont know when to put it so i kept for a while re-cutting ...but then never grows up sooooo..stay strong and dont cut it!!! haha oor do whatever u fuckign want!!!
i want a piece of that cake yeah
i want a piece of that cake yeah
I am currently eating John West's Smoked Mussles with Branston's Tomato and Red Pepper Relish on Rivata. I come up with the best snack food when I'm stoned. 
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narshada:
You should feel free to rant on my blog whenever you like! That's a bit of a weird combination, but no weirder than some of the stuff I eat even when I'm not stoned! Man I wish I had some weed...
emya:
Hehe, yeah, it was awesome! So glad I went, it was a long journey since I live a couple of hundred miles away from London (think thats how far it is) but it was sooo worth it! 
xXx
xXxI love Sundays. I haven't got to be anywhere or do anything for anyone. No one's home... it's awesome.
Curries are good too.
Curries are good too.
start_today:
I hate Sundays, too boring!
But I had an amazong curry last night.
But I had an amazong curry last night.
ortus:
You really cannot beat a good curry.
I need to piss
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ortus:
So do I.
BRB.
BRB.
ortus:
'I'll be waiting' reminded me of this. Do you know it? ;_;
It's barely worth going to sleep now.
My face is clearing up nicely by the way. A black eye formed, swelling happened and scabs appeared. The swelling has gone down though and the scabs have just about been picked off. It's also been one week since I had a drink - that's a long time considering I was drinking everynight at work and after work....
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My face is clearing up nicely by the way. A black eye formed, swelling happened and scabs appeared. The swelling has gone down though and the scabs have just about been picked off. It's also been one week since I had a drink - that's a long time considering I was drinking everynight at work and after work....
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kilcher:
Glad to hear you're healing. Luck with the drinking. No way I could do that. 
liv:
*hugs*
I'm losing it
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ortus:
It'll turn up again. These things always do.
kilcher:
Sorry to hear that. Hope things are better today.
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dark_cabal:
Ouch! 
That looks like it hurt some.
I'll add my two cents, keep track of how many steps there are when going up and down.
That looks like it hurt some.
I'll add my two cents, keep track of how many steps there are when going up and down.
monroe:
What happened???
im glad u stay safe no matter what! thanks u to go downstairs!!!
please give the world a lil' bit a chance just for another day
my good thoughts and vibes go with you
and i hope we can talk soon
I hope you're talking to people about whatever is going on in your head.