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Right, I've figured this thing out. Well, not necessarily. I've known this for a long time but always chose to brush it to one side or ignore it. I know what I have to do. As of today, I'm going cold turkey. No alcohol, No Cigarettes and No weed - my 3 biggest downfalls. It's not going to be easy, but it has been long over due.

For years, months, weeks, endless nights and long boring lazy days on the sofa I been have moaning about my life - mainly my mental health and the effects it has on my life, and although I have tried this therapy and that medication and read this book and that one, I have never really done the things that would probably help the most - give up all the things that have an obvious effect on my mental health - or at least helps to aid bad effects on my health. Depression and BPD aside, my memory is awful - to the point where I often think It could be Dementia ( it runs in the family). So i moan and complain but what do I actually do about it? Nothing. Weed obviously doesn't help this; drinking with my meds doesn't help this - wow, actually, I won't even start on the drinking. But it's no wonder I forget everything when I walk around in a bubble or just generally switched off... when sober. I hate that when I run upstairs I get out of breath - wtf?! I hate feeling tired all the time. A lot of that comes from my meds but the weed doesn't help.

Sorry, Wayne Rooney's giving a press conference and I've completely lost my train of thought.

Basicly - No Weed, Alcohol, Cigarettes or processed food until further notice. I know it'll make me feel better in all different aspects of my life - I just need to do it! I need to start living my life and doing things to aid my happiness & health - starting here.