lashes

So, London was fun i guess.... but I spent the entire day thinking of my ex. Anything negative that I had previously thought decided to disappear from my head today and my brain decided to concentrate and dwell on everything. this would have been different, that would have been different, he'd have liked this, we'd have done that. I kinda felt sorry for the guy I was with cos I was very distant. He's a very touchy feely guy and today it annoyed me... and he sure as hell noticed. For the past couple of years I've always thought of myself as a touchy feely kinda girl and someone who loves cuddles and to be hugged and showered with kisses etc.... but that's crap - unless it's from someone I truly truly like... otherwise "Get off me!". It's annoying to be touched all the time, stroking my face, moving my hair... just thinking about it is angering me. It was never like this with Matt though... i complained he didn't touch me enough, never gave me enough affection blah blah. His touch never annoyed me.

This is killing me to write this.

Ciao.