lashes

So I failed a suicide attempt today. I've just got back from the hospital. I don't really how know I feel about it all. I wnt downstairs and mum could see I was upset. She eveutally got it out me that I'd taken a load of sleeping pills. Ambulance arrived in seconds. I was angry cos it was wasted on me.. someone who wanted to die. It should have been elsewhere saving someone who wanted to be saved. they did rank things to me, took my blood and made me drink charcoal. I'm not sure if i should have gone downstairs or just stayed upstairs and let them run thier course.