lashes

I have had the wierdest couple of days. Well, actually everything's been pretty normal. What I mean is, mentally everything has been a bit odd. Having annoying mood swings and I've had the shortest temper on me. Last week I managed to get into rows with the head chef, a co-worker, the supervisor, the bar manager, my boss and my Dad. I've bit the head off of my Mum a bit too and also taken everything out on Matt as well. I dunno what's wrong but I need to snap out of this grumpy mood. I don't wanna keep pissing off people around me - it's not fun and it leaves me with a terrible amount of guilt. Nikki (the bar manager) came up to me today and said that she'd bought me a present cos she'd noticed I've not been myself and have been a bit down. I could see in her hand that it was chocolate. My response? "If it's chocolate - thanks but no thanks." Nice huh? I was feeling sick at the time but there was no need for me to be so ungrateful and snappy.

I'm gonna go shopping tomorrow. Normally I'd be looking forward to it, but to be honest I'm not. I tried some jeans on the other day and they didn't fit. I could get them on but I couldn't do the button or zip up. Normally this wouldn't bother me so much because sometimes i can be one size in one shop and a different size in a different shop. Thing is though - I already have these exact jeans except they're a different colour. Long and short of it - I've put on weight. I won't try on any more jeans tomorrow cos I don't wanna ruin my day off by being in a grump all day. Matt's coming here too tomorrow so I definitely don't want to be in a grump when I see him. Instead I'm just gonna buy a new bag, some accesories and some much needed jumpers - stuff that always fits.