I think the biggest difference from 17 to now is that I'll never be someone's first love again and no one will ever be mine. Now we're all just trying to fill the shoes of the last person they loved and falling short and wondering what happened to blunts smoked in broken photobooths, hiding from the parties we were too stoned to participate in, falling off sleds with Bailey's in our Tim Hortons cups, video games on old faded furniture and believing you would just be happy in one moment and that moment would stretch somehow into forever and none of the things that could hurt you were a real threat because you were so young and I was so young and we were so young.. and now everything is recycled. That's the thing about your 20s that is different from being a teenager. Nothing is new. Everything is haunted. Everything is a less intense version of an experience you already had and everything you do is in pursuit of "as close as possible" because the real thing ran itself into the ground when you were too young to know what to do.
