larose404

ok so I cjheck SG every otherday cos this is how I get my news but have rarely updated my journal cos there's more than often too much going on. usually that's a reason for regular updates, but in my case, too much going on is typically too much painful going on. so a quick recap of the past 6 months:

am single again- long and painful and probably not 100% complete break-up. am still trying to disentangle the last 6%. found out that the girl on whom I have had a crush for the past 8 months, whom could be referred to as my best friend if I believed in such terms (but whom I can say is a better friend to me than anyone else I know here), doesn't reciprocate my feelings, and has started 'seeing' (whatever that means- in this case the minimum it means is started fucking) my exgirlf's fomer fuckbuddy. someone asked me how I felt about it the other day, and I think that it's more 'Why did it have to be him?' rather than 'Why isn't it me?'.

have purchased a motorcycle, crashed it, recovered, fixed it and gotten back on it. have kicked ass in all my classes, moved out, moved into my own place, fixed it up, gotten through therapy. otherwise, have tried to get back in the dating horse, but keep getting shot out of the saddle, so to speak, by random factors, like the existence (though not physical presence or geographic proximity) of my last (and first) date's boyfriend.

in short, sudden steep losses, outweighed by regular, short steps towards progress. little victories