laputa64

How come when you get sick, your life wont wait around until you start feeling better? and why is it that i am wasting my life away being sick. so much valuable time wasted! well i have been really really sick if you can't gather that. on friday i had to go to the hospital b/c there was nothing that could get within a 5- foot radius and not turn into vomit and i was having bad abdominal and chest pains. but i guess i am okay now. i am no longer in the fetal position. i owe jarod a HUGE apology that will come shortly. i stood him up on friday. being sick is still no excuse for not calling. i am a terrible person.

i guess i am going to quit our band which breaks my heart. it has been getting harder and harder for me to make it to practice....and then today they told me that they wanted to ask dustin to be in the band and play keyboards. when i told them i wasn't comfortable with that....they basically said everything except tell me that they didn't care what i thought. they were really nice about it and everything....but i really would NOT be comfortable with it...and they really want him to be in the band.....it WOULD be beneficial for them even though we are a GIRL band that sings about GIRL things.....*pout* it just makes me sad....and he KNEW it would come to this. he knew.....

i have so much stuff from nervousness.org to catch up on. i only have one lmao going and a couple of exchanges however i feel like i am drowning!!!

i was going to go visit josh in atlanta this tuesday...but chavis has to work...so....maybe NEXT tuesday. i sure hope so. i could SO use a vacation.

someone want to send me money to get my passport?

i should go to bed. it is 2am.....so much to say....so little coherency....