laputa64

wow. what a weekend! well jon moved in. he got kicked out of his house and as much as he fougbt moving in here before, he had nowhere else to turn. i don't think it will be near as bad living here as he is afraid that it will be. 2years of being best friends and he still wont eat at my house b/c he is too shy. maybe finally that will change. he is taking his tv back from me though...which leaves me with no tv in my room *sob* i think that that kind of settles it then that i am going to sell my xbox and gamecube. i have been talking about it b/c i have no money and i shouldn't have expensive items when people are sacrificing so much to help me right now. if i have no television then i don't need them. i definently am not going to be purchasing a tv any time soon.
i am so tired of feeling bad. it has gotten to the point that i don't mention the fact that i feel bad and just keep going. my friend genevieve has ulcerative colitis and she has lost tons of weight b/c of it. it isn't fair!!! i am just as sick as her but i am gaining weight. not only am i sick, broke, and miserable but i am also fat. i need to find out how i can get a tape worm so that i can lose some weight.
i am watching the grammys right now. or sort of am. they are on in the background but are pretty boring. speaking of terrible television. WHATEVER YOU DO!!! DO NOT GO SEE THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT. "drama" an ashton kutcher DON'T. this plot is so weak that they had to add all of the shock value possible so maybe you would be distracted from the fact that they never bothered to explain anything. trust me. you will spend more time talking about how terrible it was then you will watching the movie. let's just put it this way. there is so much terribly horrific stuff in the movie that they id'd us twice just to get into the theater....and i am telling you. think of something that makes you say, "damn that is fucked up!" and it is in this movie. the comedy was good though. like when kutcher is in jail and is going to join a white supremist gang....enter the serious climax and he says "so when am i supposed to suck your dick" you can't help but laugh. even though it is supposed to be serious. not to mention his "batman"ing through the hallway in his lab coat, or throwing himself on the ground to block his own wheelchair while his arms are amputated. Funny stuff!
yeah....but i am going to just try to let that rant go.....and i guess off to nervousness i go.