Waiting. So bored of waiting.
I guess I have been pretty resilient and resourceful in the last few months but shit is getting to me now.
Anyone who has done it knows that moving half way across the world for good is difficult. I've managed to get a job, finally get my visa and it looks like we might have somewhere to stay. It's the 'might' bit I can't handle right now. 2 adults and a baby in one tiny room is enough to drive anyone crazy.
2 nights ago my hard drive broke, losing 2tb of personal photos and videos not to mention a ridiculous amount of movies, music and television shows. Maybe that's why I'm getting so depressed about things at the moment. Most my stuff is in storage and have to wait until we are 'settled' before I can get stuff out here.
I guess the idea that I have to start again with a hard drive is a good analogy on the fact that I've been starting again for almost 3 years now and just want some stability in my & our life.
I know these things are transitional but knowing something and dealing with something can be two completely different things.
Right now I'm losing my fight.
