laphroaig

So a tiring week, emotionally spent.

I am looking forward to the future, but its pretty difficult not knowing where I will be or what outcomes will happen. Worse things happen at sea, I just wish I could set sail.

Seriously though people face face worse dilemas than this and I just need to stay positive, Im just sick of not having any real stability in my life at the moment. Ive had some pretty awesome adventures in the last year or so, I just want to retire from them for a while though. Being at home really doesn't help though.

I just need to tell myself I have another 7.5 weeks left. Doing 12 hour shifts this week, 6 days in a row. Very tiring and repetative. Then its home, bblog, catch up with emails, and wait until its morning in the Southern Hemisphere to talk. On about 4 hours sleep a day at the mo, but cant increase it. My body clock instantly wakes me at 4 and cant sleep until midinght... I like looking back on these blogs when I am in a better frame of mind and it reminds me how lucky I am even when I am down. Worse shit happens to better people every day.