I'm feeling good about myself for the first time in a long time....
Einstein once said 'A man starts to live when he can live outside himself' Im starting to understand what he meant. Thats not to say I won't be down in a few days time, and its not to say I will. I'm just feeling a bit cool about myself and that's what I need right now.
Finished work at 15.30 and went for a couple of drinks. Good thing was I'd cycled about a 2 mile, sitting down on my BMX, and had done a little bit of excercise. So I felt good. Its a rock pub but has some decent punk and rockabilly tunes on the juke box. Met my sis, cycled home, up a hill you really need gears for, but felt good just pushing myself to cycle it. Got home and had to help my Landlord move a fridge from his house to his van. Well I say had too, I felt obligated. After helping him I had too...and this time no choice, pay rent.....I had a bag of weed in by wallet, and it fell out
So we had a smoke. He took about 2 puffs and was wasted, hilarious...
Got a call from some friends who were in the pub, so I cycled down to meet them. Drank coke, and just kicked back. stayed about an hour and a half, went to a chinese restaurant and cycled back to a hippy garden just down from me. All these total free spirited people hang out as if the 60's never ended...Its really tranquil. I ate my won ton soup with chopsticks and these little kids came over 'willow' and 'leia' - guess someone likes fantasy movies
Anyway, they stood by me and asked what I was doing. I felt creepy at first, a guy on his own talking to children, but they then asked me where I was from, I told them and they ran over to where their mum and her friends were sitting and told them to come and meet the nice Scottish man..
Made me smile a lot....
I got home about 2 hours ago, and my legs are burning from cycling, which is good. Its nice to be getting myself back again...planning new adventures and looking forward to good times to come. Generally I love being me, its just been a hard slog lately and I lost sight of how lucky I really am. Im hoping things are looking up now......
Night Night Brothers and Sisters.......Thanks for listening to me pontificate
