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Got chatting to a customer at work today, Irts weird but you have to wear a polo shirt to work, and a lot of my art is visible...including chest and neck, Ive never been into that, but over the last couple of days its interesting, people down here are quite respectful. Unlike a lot of other places.

So Im serving a cute girl, whos chatting and smiling, has classic style Sailor Jerry sleeve. Said I liked it and she told me where she got it and liked mine too. Were chatting how long had I been here etc.... Then said she'd seen me walking about town a few times, and was my friend alright from Saturday? Basically what had happened was on Saturday, I really wanted to go clubbing, but my mate collapsed on the sea front in Brighton - highly embarrassing, and worse off as he was seriously injured and not just drunk. He had a rugby injury come back on him so just sat on the pavement for ages. These Girls came over and offfered to call an ambulance, we declined, and I was just worried about Adam. Still pretty weird that the same girl was in today....says she'll see me about..haha. Starting to feel a bit more human today. Its day by day at the moment. The sensible part of me - which used to be most of me, knows this.

So I cant promise that I wont be up and down like a brides nighty (sorry, thought was funny) over the next few days....

Joined a book club, a movie club and a random discussions club, all here in Brighton, at 4.30 this morning. Went to sleep at 11.45, woke up at 1.15 and that was me. Im currently sitting in bed, a little stoned and have just taken my sleeping pill....heres hoping. I couldnt do with the voices in my head tonight. Night off me thinks....
Still going to bars all the time isnt a great way to meet people. My job is quite a fall from the position that I did up to Juanuary, but I can see me being happy in it, once I get my shit together in other ways.

The Bike I got yesterday helped anyway. Old Bmx 25 quid - about $37.I can stay slightly fitter, and Ive always had BMX's although my stunt days are over, nearly had an arm amputated after one incident.
Showing of and Girls were involved..... somethings never change....The breaks failed at the top of a very steep hill today....thank god for Doc Marten Soles....

I got a text from the girl I was going out with, saying she will text me after the weekend....all 'me me me' havent replied and wont reply. My problem is im too nice half the time. I think if I was a Bastard, I wouldnt have a problem with relationships......

Still working out what to do over the weekend. DO I go out an party alcohol free...which isnt hard for me really, just has been of late....or do I sit in, and think......TV is good for one thing, and thats to stop you think. But I dont have a TV and dont really want one so It would be me and my Head Dialogue, and to be quite honest, Ive never been a loner, I need me time, but all I have recently is my own company, or the company of couples.

Got a tea and toast consultation with Kate, my new tattooist, on Saturday at 4.30. How quintisentially Einglish...think thats so cool. Her stuff looks amazing....

http://www.inkatattoos.co.uk/portfolio/kate/colour/3/7/3/131

First off a pirate girl for my sleeve....

Today was a better day. Thanks to Friends, Pirate Girls and Tattooed customers


Oh and a bit of retail therapy........