Woke up on a glorious easter morning....the mutterings of Famous Blue Raincoat cascading in my mind....Feeling chemically imbalanced. That'll be the booze then! 
Sitting in bed, iPod on Random. Currently We are Scientists, Thats What Counts. No worktill 1pm so I wonder where apples finest will take me today....Was out in Greenock last night with a friend, a quick pint turned into a bitchfest!
I did feel a bit mad though, a cool freakshow, My friend is very, how can I put it without insulting the guy.....straight laced...We're in a bar and girls kept coming up to me and asking fo photo's W"TF? he couldnt beleive it, ant TBF neither could I. That has never happened in my life...Totally accept that probablywanted a photo with a tattooed freak...but I loved the attention!
Ipod playing Money Is Not All, Mikey Brooks now.....
Well my day will be nothing compaired to the trials of JC today....but I think it will be tough, at least It wont be ......BIBLICAL! I have no interest in organised religion, with zealists and idealogical fools throwing their tuppence in ...don't get me started on modern day catastrophists!!!!
My faith is in my head and I made my peace with god a long time ago
Metallica...Don't Tread On Me...Donnington 91'
So Im beside my one true love right now...My constant....The Sea! My family has always had an afinity for it. My father could navagate from here to IndoChina, as it was known, but would get lost driving his car ten miles
Silly sod never passed his driving test till I was 19. I could drive before him,
Compared to What, Les McCann, Casino Soundtrack......
Random thoughts Random Music Random Memories. Some of the greatest times I have are in my own company randomising. Used tho think needed drink, and company to be me, that was a persona, and not real. Besides If you drink to be happy................Always remember a film quote, dont drink to forget, drink to remember. DOnt really know how that works
One more tune and my blog is finishedLes McCann is 5.46 into a 8 min song at the moment so I guess i'll just sit and contemplate life, see what random stuff happes, may even type...
This is not how I am meant to feel, but it is not a charade....They Live, putting on the sunglasses and seeing the world as it s. Ye, in my world the sunglasses are on because the future is bright. I got a phone call from a job agency yesterday, offering me a job interview. Money would emore than was on before If I got it, and beleive me I can sell myself in an interview! 99.9% success rate
Got a KB two months ago because 'over-qualified' I thought Fuck Them, they dont know what their missing...my survival instinct is strong...
Shakespeares Sister..think I'll hang around..
Darlin' Wait For Me, Richard Hawley...
Took me a whole song to type that last bit...My typings slack!
Still as I was saying, I was offered an interview yesterday. ridiculous money. A few months ago I would have taken it their and then. Wanted t make friends and family proud, thought that only way to do that was to be successful in my career. I dicked about when I was young, guess I was never allowed to be me. My dad, god love him, used to tell me 'son, this punk thing, its not good here' Used to makeme immaturely rebel against him,didnt really get that he was looking out for me. TBF looking back, having a mohawk in a small town will get you notice, the wrong typeshould have realised that when got my nose broke....
Over My Head - Fleetwood Mac
This could be a long blog
Ive had a long slog
When I got into a pub last night they were playing How Soon Is now...changed to 'house' right after that but was cool. Felt like a theme tune.
I saw Kyle, a little guy that used to work for me, having a drink with his friends, made me smile. Wherever I go, I always see someone I know. Didnt say hello or talk to him,
Harvest Moon, Neil Young..Its a good trip today
No, it just makes me smile seeing people. When I first moved back, I had another six degrees moment with my neighbour...but I should talk abouthow I moved back first.....
So, For years I was unhappy in England, confidence at an all time low. My work was My life, and it was great. I was popular, successful etc etc blah blah blah...but I was only happy 9-5.30 (or 8pm as i'd stay behind setting up shop for next day!)
1.09 left of Mr Young, the south dont like him Y'Know
But I would come home empty. I had a big house down south, 4 bedrooms. I'd sit in the livingroom playing xbox, watching foreign..
In Haven Pixies...yyyyyyyyyeeeeeeesssssss!
...foreign movies, she would be upstairs prepping lessons for her college job.... I never realised until now Ive been single for years. we moved back she retrained, which I funded, talked about kids - which I want sooooo much, I got the kittens thught I could save relationship. But you know you cant save what you dont want!
Coney Island Baby, Lou Reed...Hue Reid and the Velvet Underpants..LOL
So anyway, For years i wanted to move back to Scotland, I now realise that it wasnt Scotland (no disrespect, Queen of my being) I needed to move back to living......that could be Outer Gibrovia now, I realise that much.
When it finally happened, I had to make some tough choices. My boss told me he could get me back to Scotland, but it would end our frendship because he would feel betrayed, he was a great guy, but very competitive.
Fuck off....email on iPhone.....WHISKAS: Month 12 Preparing for Adulthood....Cornelius will be a year old on the 14th
Lou Reed..'man I swear id give the whole thing up for you...'
Miserlou (hhahaha) Lou reed to Miserlou...funny.....Agent Orange!
Psalms 4:8
So he told me that he could offer me an area manager job withing 2 months or get me back home...back to Kansas
Muse - Exogenesis Symphony Part 3 (Redeption) (Album Version)
Shit...work just called...want me in for 12...bastards...I foolishly said yes!!!!
hootenanny, the replacements...not their finest work..
I took the wizard up on his offer...but kansas had changed
Within 2 weeks I had put my house up for sale, sold it been interviewed in Scotland, met up with Martin for first time in 9 years...thank you myspace...
No
Bootleg
Idlewild
DVD's
Outkast....Its starting to go wrong...
Slayer- disciple.........AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH...damn you randomness.....
Think I'll go into work for 12.30...happy thoughts
Making me smile...Tom Araya needs councilling.....
Back in control..hehehe
So yeah...9 years man...old friends/bookshelf ( think thats right) so I put house up for sale, sold within 1week...new job, same company but transfer......suddenly struck me that didnt have anywhere to stay this end...fuck me is that not obviously......
At about the same time as I realised this I received a call from Dougie
Both Sides Now - Leonard Nimoy....hahahahahahah Class
Dougie said, listen if your online check this property out...good location etc etc blah blah blah....He's a solicitor and estate agent, and a good friend to boot!
So I looked at it called him back said buy it! house on t'internet...rock'n'roll or what...Never told her till she got home 6 hours later! By then property of the market...didnt realise how quick Houses sell in Scotland..
Golden Shore, Frank Black...I ant never gonna see you any more...how subtle...
I guess oving back was the start of the end...She was at Uni..If she went out with her g'friends, Id get a call from one of them, or her TBF, saying 'get your arse out' your missed......Realise now I was more popularthan her...DuH!
We didnt do
Skies the Limit - Fleetwood Mac...Ipod in love with Stevie Nick...Cant blame it...Circa 89' who wouldnt be! LOL
We Didnt Do Couple Things. She was a drinking buddy, (I sound like a Bukowski character.....Fuck! Must change name to Vincent Kapowski....Alter ego! The Id is strong in this one
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But yeah WE DIDNT DO COUPLE THINGS. If I took her to the cinema,
The New Style B'Boys.....
If I took her to the cinema...She would whisper in my ear..........wait for it..........YOUR FUCKING BORING.....THIS IS SHIT...I stopped going to the cinema
Took her to Grosvenor in Glasgow at christmas... hadnt been at the cinema in years....Went to see Wonderful Life...was embarrassing, she was drunk....ruined it.End of bitchfest.......
Im at peace....Just hope Jesus is ok...I think about him this time of year....seems most people don't nowadays.....
Who's Been Sleeping Here - strolling Bones.....
Someones texted me, made my day.....Im in a good place
