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I am now in the Lovely Massachusetts!!
Home Sweet Home!
Flying into boston stirred so many warm family memories, it was a wonderful feeling!
My friend is getting married tomorrow, and I get to see my family so I am relatively happy.


There was one thing missing...Palm trees...
No No I am kidding I miss all my friends in LA! Thats right I said it!...
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So I decided to turn the negative in my life to a positive!

I am going to start writing a book! I do not know how far I will get or how long it will take me, but I do know that it will help put to bed some of my misery!!

I am done being a victim !!

'Tis better to have loved and...
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So...
Life is verry interesting.
You move to a new place thinking that you are going to get married and that you have everything figured out.
You have a great job.
You meet great people.
You have a wonderful fiancee...or so you think...

One day you are told that the person that you were about devote the rest of your life to has been with...
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It is over.
My life has changed drastically over the past couple of weeks, I only wish that I could say it was for the best. I feel dead.
It does not matter what others say I have to listen to my heart!

My heart pulls me closer as you push me away.
Come back to me and hold me tightly like you have before.

I am so drained.
I will not be a vicitm.
I will press on...


Work sucked today more than usual and I am not quite sure why. Someone stole 15 lotions off of a table right infront of the cash register, what balls!
People make me so sad!!
I do not trust anyone anymore!
I am faithless...

oh well I will live to fight another...
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Blue tears stream down my face.
Morose thoughts flood my mind.
It is better to have love and have lost then never love at all.

I am a sappy fool!