lameass

Why do girls do the shit they do to me? Its been over three years since she has actually initiated any kind of intimacy with me . Its like she cant stand for me to touch her. There is the sighing and then the disinterested expressions and then she just lays there. When i try to ask her about it she goes into the whole its me not you thing and the im trying to work on myself and get better. Well its been three fucking years and i have given up on trying.

I stopped trying to initiate any kind of intimate contact with her as a test, and big surprise she hasnt made one attempt to touch me like im some kind of fucking leper or something. I give her everything, i buy all the food, pay ALL the bills and try so fucking hard to make her life good. She says she loves me but i think im just a meal ticket to her. She sits on Tumblr all day and night and i would not be surprised if she is cheating on me due to past behavior. She took two weeks off work a few years back to meet some myspace guy from jersey that she had been iming. I only found out when she left the message box open and the guy started texting about how great it was going to be to finnally be able to kiss and hold her blah blah. She flipped out when i confronted her and blamed her best friend for telling me( she didnt) and they no longer speak to each other. Every other girl ive been with wanted sex whenever we were alone.

She must still enjoy sex as she takes baths and i can hear her using a vibrator when she does, she probably doesnt know how loud it is or just does not give a shit. Rant over i guess, i feel like grabbing a gun and putting it to my forehead fuck its frustrating.