lamdalamdalamda

it's been a month since las i updated. sheesh. time has passed by so quickly, but very little has happened. this will go on the record as "the lonely summer". my ex won't talk to me, yet gets upset when i am not at her immediate diposal. my other friends are at play. i don't play well. i've finished writing a piece for electroacoustic environment and viola. took me a year. finding someone who will be willing/able to play it will probably take me longer. i have'nt even seen my favorite cat, uncle morty much this year. one good thing: my allergies have'nt been nearly as bad. i think my body is apologising for all the colds i got this winter. reading kristeva. becoming self-conscious about all the foods i hate.

so, my own pillow book of sorts: things that give a warm feeling:

abjection
sonification of lightning storms
holderlin
rhizomatic sculpture
analytic philosophy
sailboats
pretty girls in hajabs
white tea
liz in her pretty red car
luigi nono

things that give a light feeling

sho
weatherband radio
the scattering of birds in the presence in the presence of a hawk
ice cream trucks
fireflys
the furtive glance
the restrained gesture
ant colonies
paper flowers