so, last night i was hanging out with my once and future lover, and a strange conversation emerged. i was saying something to her that she did not believe. i can't remember how the topic emerged, but we got onto a dicussion of multiple worlds. each of our perceptions and collective experiences being complete worlds, and that each world (the total experience of each individual being) has as much to do with another world as we in our present lives have to do with our future lives. unknowable. totally unknowable. therefore we can never share a world. she said that that was sad. not wanting to make her sad, and feeling a little silly, i dropped the subject. however, as i went home from work today, that dialogue came back at me. why do we even try? why do we speak to eachother if the meaning can not be known? why intimacy at all?
i guess this is all very silly. i'm tired. i've been alone too long. i can't concentrate. i fall in love too easily. i go to bed now. good night
i guess this is all very silly. i'm tired. i've been alone too long. i can't concentrate. i fall in love too easily. i go to bed now. good night
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A common problem.
(Portland is a paradoxical place. Still, I love it.)
now... maybe you were intoxicated. maybe you were joking. maybe you were totally serious.
however you meant it, whatever terms you were judging on at the time, by those same terms and standards who are the five most beautiful women on earth in your opinion? like i was saying earlier, i don't presume i'm in that list. your original comment could've been off a list of 100. like the greatest novels of the 20th century.
you are a record store clerk? radness!
as you can tell, i was a literature major. or maybe you can't. but i was.
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Sophie