lalayla

Anyone else get depressed after having a lot of fun the night before? I have a huge issue with this. Its like coming off of drugs, but with no drugs to blame for it! Ever since I was about 12 Ive had this thing where I always wake up in the morning after having a good time and either start crying or nervously jump out of bed or feel like i need to grab my boyfriend and not let him go because i feel so lonely. The latter is what happened this morning. I could have slept in forever today, but I woke up with his alarm at 5:45 and havent gone back to sleep cause the moment i woke up I felt like something was wrong and I couldnt go back to sleep or I would be more upset when I woke up. So I watched some cartoons which calmed me down but once I wake up Im awake so here I am wasting time on this site as usual.

So anyway...I had a lot of fun last night at the concert It was my first concert ever and my favorite band so of course I was overwhelmingly happy. I know everyone on here hates evanescence with a passion, but I admit Im a little obsessed. So is my sister. The only problem was that we thought we had seats on the balcony, but we were on the floor! I would have brought some high heels if I knew this! Anyways it turned out ok, I could lean over and see Amy most of the time, and my sister and I ran up near the front for our favorite songs so that was fun. It was so nice to be able to go out and do something with my sister - because she spends her life watching over her son (he has autism and not many people can babysit him), we rarely get to do things together, outside of her house. And the fact that we both love the music so much, and certain songs bring up emotional childhood memories - it was a great experience for us. Oh and I was amazed at how good Amy sang! I thought it wasnt going to sound so good since it was live, but I was completely wrong. Her voice was absolutely perfect. I was so sad when it ended, but theyre coming back next year, and you know I'll be there.

So now I have loads of homework to catch up on since Ive been sick for over a week I got an ear infection on thursday, started taking antibiotics on friday, and ever since friday Ive had a loud constant ringing in my right ear that has been driving me INSANE. I cant function without some sort of noise to mask the ringing, but normally I cant concentrate unless its quiet so this poses a problem with studying. Im in deep shit as far as I can see. Midterms this week and possibly a presentation. Lovely.

And I dont even have time to carve pumpkins this year!!! What the fuck?!?!?