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Wednesday Jan 14, 2009

Jan 13, 2009
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You ever have those days when it doesn't seem to really matter what you do? I've been having a lot of those lately. Most of everything I've been doing is an exercise in futility.

Try to handle my education, but my father thinks I've somehow become bereft of the ability because of my older sister. It doesn't help that the school is still pending my application.

Try to handle my sleeping, but it won't come, even when I'm tired. And when it does come its more like a trance, with constant interruptions.

Try to handle my relationships, but I've been abandoned.

Try to handle my health, but theres always something wrong, whether it be skin breaking out of dryness, to my ingrown toe nail, to my ability to breathe. I suspect the lack of quality sleep is one of the problems.

It really makes me want to just give up, and say to heck with it all. But if I did that I just wouldn't be me. So what can I do? I don't know, I wish I did. I know my life has improved for the better over the past few years but, how can I fix the problems that have appeared before me?

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