laiden

Life changing moment where i know i can't exsist like this , where i know theres either nothing else or something else is just awaiting my final move........alone , yet voices mumble that they are there , a shlouder to let saline fall upon them, they are just mumbles tho! Missing the seat where a soul sat once before , missing when I had a soul that was ambitious , that dreamed and made every chess piece she moved grant her a King , instead of following the board .. Nothing is clear , clutter fills this gap in a spongey substance of a brain . Nothing can process , one feeling leads to a memory of distaste , a memory of satisfaction a memory of abuse and shock a memory of fondness , the rambles made more sense then, now nothing does ... when your vocal cords are gone how shall you talk ? motions of my hands can't communicate what my mind desires to express . Wonder Wonder wonderful life , never seen it , but i think i felt it once , when happy wasn't just a definition. I missed that right turn somewhere , now i need a U turn in my life ... at the next fork in the road i'll turn , yet again i missed it . And now my ambitions and motivation are on empty , failure sets in and expectations from a letdown her parent fullfill her destiny.
erase this
erase me
I wish at times i could .....................................