can something be terribly good and terribly bad all at the same time? i can't even think right now. i'm so fucking tired right now. i've been having to explain to everyone at work that i look like i'm dead because working and going to school at the same time is really hard on me. that's not totally it. my heart feels like it's gonna stop any second. and i don't really give a fuck if it does either way. i've been having to work 30+ hours a week, go to school full time, and deal with a bunch of stuff outside work that is bending me in way too many directions. i haven't called my family since school started back in august, i haven't written shit for music since then either. i feel like i live in a world of shit sometimes....... 
AND WHAT IN THE FUCK IS A "LETTE"?
you know who you are and this is for you:
If there's one thing in this world that I must do
It will be, prove you wrong
Make you take back the lies
And bring the truth to the surface
Clean my slate and erase
All the black you've tried to
Tarnish my name with
This is conviction
What I have inside you'll never possess
And because you never understood how I lived
You try to disrespect
I paid my fucking dues
And everything I have in this life
I've made from nothing
I've done this all on my own
That's more than you can say for yourself
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
I'm judging you
This time I'm judging you
THE HARDER YOU TRY TO BREAK ME
THE HARDER I PUSH ON!
If there's one thing in this world that I must do
It will be, prove you wrong
You never believed in this
And you never could admit your fault
You've always had everything handed to you
But your luck has finally run out
I knew from the beginning
You had no heart or soul
I've always seen through your lies
And I'll always hate you for what you are
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you.
Judging you, I'm judging you.
THE HARDER YOU TRY TO BREAK ME
THE HARDER I PUSH ON!
AND WHAT IN THE FUCK IS A "LETTE"?
you know who you are and this is for you:
If there's one thing in this world that I must do
It will be, prove you wrong
Make you take back the lies
And bring the truth to the surface
Clean my slate and erase
All the black you've tried to
Tarnish my name with
This is conviction
What I have inside you'll never possess
And because you never understood how I lived
You try to disrespect
I paid my fucking dues
And everything I have in this life
I've made from nothing
I've done this all on my own
That's more than you can say for yourself
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
I'm judging you
This time I'm judging you
THE HARDER YOU TRY TO BREAK ME
THE HARDER I PUSH ON!
If there's one thing in this world that I must do
It will be, prove you wrong
You never believed in this
And you never could admit your fault
You've always had everything handed to you
But your luck has finally run out
I knew from the beginning
You had no heart or soul
I've always seen through your lies
And I'll always hate you for what you are
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you
You disrespect the way I live
You take apart what I say
You try to judge me
Now I'm judging you.
Judging you, I'm judging you.
THE HARDER YOU TRY TO BREAK ME
THE HARDER I PUSH ON!
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yawf:
i've done the school/work thing while living on my own and it is NOT FUN, not at all. good luck, just remember that it really does end. of course then you have to move on into the real world, fun fun. 
yawf:
it's actually funny that you mention crack. too many people i've heard about recently have issues with that demon. it's fun to make fun of them though. buttahead!