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lafayetteproulx

Memphis, TN

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Monday Jul 02, 2007

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Whenever I think back on my childhood (And I'm sure this is the same with most people), things are mostly a blur, they're really fragmented. My earliest memory is the day I got stabbed in the back (still have the scar, it's about 7-8 inches long). All I remember is that we were at Georgette's house in Milford, Pennsylvania and my parents had me in the bathroom, me sitting next to the sink. It was night time, and it was a Halloween party. My parents were freaking out because I just had a toy sword put through my back and I didn't notice.
Now I can't remember anything else from that night. That happens a lot when I think back. Memories will come and go, like they're shifting pieces of a puzzle. I'll remember one thing and forget another, like the sound the giant tree in our backyard made when it snapped and fell into the woods. It's always little things that come and go, I'm usually good with the big details.
There is one event in my childhood that I just kind of forgot. I don't know if some sort of self imposed mental block was put on it. Up until yesterday all I could remember of the whole thing was one little snippet, just one thing that the person said and that's it.
The other day I wasn't doing anything spectacular, I was having a glass of wine (Because I have now given up vodka), and was revising a story when light switch quick I remembered the whole thing, the whole incident. Now a lot of people know that one snippet, because that's all I can remember. Now the whole thing, no one knows, just me. My parents don't know, and they'll never know because I don't want to break their hearts. My sister doesn't know, none of my friends know, no one.
Eventually I'll tell someone, I'll have to tell someone, because I can't make sense of it. I mean I know what happened, it's a clear as day type of memory, but it's also the kind of thing that I'm sure I'll tell it and whoever I tell it to will cry foul because it's kind of out there. I don't know, it's just weird.
But anyway, it's just weird that all of a sudden I remembered what happened beyond that second or two that I initially had collected in my brain.
Still I don't know what to make of it, I mean I was just a kid, and this is something that happened 15-16 years ago, and it's kind of understandable why I put a mental block on the whole thing, kids have a good habit of doing that, blocking out harmful memories. I just want to know if something that happened 16 years ago could have an effect on me now, because for some reason I now remember the thing, it can't be a completely random thing.
I don't know, it's just weird and it's got me thinking...
I'll tell someone eventually, I actually want to tell someone, but I don't think there's anyone who would believe me if I did.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
miaka:
It's almost 10.

just go early and be that guy.
Jul 3, 2007
miaka:
Thank you, you are the first one to say that.

I was starting to get disappointed.
Jul 4, 2007

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