Many of my friends always comment about how much I have changed since I was a teenager, or even just from when I was in college. I used to be quiet, and would never swear, I never had piercings...now I am the most opinionated person around, I have the dirtiest mouth, and I am covered in tattoos.
I also had really awful body issues. Of course, this is something that never goes away. But as I've grown, I am learning to become more and more comfortable in my skin (my stubborn, sensitive, problem-plagued skin). I would hide from everyone, wear shorts over my bikini, never change in front of people...
Yesterday, I seemed to put all of this behind and shot my first set to submit as a Hopeful. Walking around completely nude in front of several people who I didn't really know felt so liberating. I quickly became incredibly open and started striking more daring poses as the day went on. In a way, this revolution is symbolic and relevant to my life outside of my nude modeling session.
The older I get, the bolder I get. In my career as a writer and blogger, I speak about controversial topics from rape to LGBT rights, from women's issues to gun reform. I get scathing comments sometimes and have even recently received a death threat via social media (unfortunately, this is something every female writer is subjected to. How dare we have opinions!). But mostly, I notice that the more blunt I become, the more respect I receive.
Sugar-coating is fucking lame. It does absolutely nothing for advancing society and it also does absolutely nothing for my own peace of mind.
With this new modeling adventure, the same can be said. I will no longer hide the fact that I have stretchmarks, that I have cellulite, that I have thunder thighs. I have to learn to love them as much as I love my big mouth.
I cannot wait to see what else this SG journey will uncover.
Peace and love, ya'll. And stay tuned!!! :)
Lady the Vamp
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