ladyofeve

Hey ya'll.

Took Jordan to Christopher's baptism with me. Ended up missing the baptism, because he wouldn't be quiet though an hour of mass. Oh well. My old Nun was there, she actually said Hi to me. Surprisingly enough.

My Grandma is gonna get a new car. Why I don't know, but hopefully it will benefit me She called me at like 9:20 this morning making me think while I've got a hangover and three hours of sleep, about trading my car in for her to get her new car, and then giving me the car she has. I dunno, even though it runs shitty, I like my car. It's the first one I've ever had So I don't really wanna give it up. But I probably should. Then I'll be stuck driving the Mommy station wagon.

And I did something awful. I went to the dentist............
to make an appointment I about vomited when I walked in and the smell of Burnt bone and bubblegum flouride filled my nostrils.
I am so F*ing scared, it's not funny. I haven't been in over two years, And I know my teeth are rotting out of my head. Reason why I haven't gone in two years is because I had a very traumatizing experience last time. Stupid fucker didn't wait until I was numb to start drilling, while I'm sitting there screaming in the chair........ They have a hard time numbing me anyways. My teeth hurt just thinking about it. I would rather give birth with no drugs then go and have my teeth drilled on with drugs. There are only two things that scare me in life, Dark water and that fucking drill.



I really need to make some changes in my life. And I'm gonna start now. So goodbye to the old Becca, and in with the new