ladymayhem

Ok so it got bad. Took 11. Hasn't even helped i'm still crying my eyes out anyway. My parents were so scared of my mood today that when i went upstairs with a swollen face and red eyes they just said nothing. It'll be better down in Otago but i need to get off these things before i leave. And next week.. onwards i think yeah, i've got to see everyone before i leave and i cant exactly be coming down then, can i? so shit, only way is to try again tomorrow, spoke to my ex he said weed helps like crazy so i have to track some down.

i'm not just going to give in and let myself keep taking them.. but then, im high and when you're high you always think it's easy dont you. ha.

it's funny, ive been on meth, prescription pills by the dozen.. come cold turkey off anti-depressants (broke my guitar and window within the same 10 minutes) yet this is the thing getting me? wtf is that about?

anyway. thanks for the support. thanks dave and gary especially. i dont really talk when im down.. if i do everything pours out and its just a right mess.

i just really hope in a month i can make a blog that says im better, im happy, im having the time of my life at my new uni and life is insane.

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ok just to say im off the drugs then.