ladymayhem

So this post is probably a little on the personal side but what the hell else i'm meant to talk about is beyond me.

Next couple of days (week maybe) i'll be going through some damn hard codeine (nurofen plus) withdrawals, i've heard it's hell, i've had a taste of it but i backed away pretty quick and just got back on. So. I've been taking maybe.. 8-12-16 a day for a few months? A lot of people are hooked on higher doses but this is pretty bad and it means the withdrawals might be pretty bad too. Plus with my depression and CFS symptoms it doesn't help................. I do know it's possible to do, but i'm not sure i'll manage it right now. I'm going to try. I've got clonazepam to help, which is amusing because that's the drug i'm actually meant to be getting off. I can't see myself without anything, that would mean i'd be facing reality. I don't like reality. Reality is chronic fatigue syndrome with no hope of a cure. Reality is not having the energy to do what i want in life. Reality is depression.

So the plan is... (Trainspotting, remember, you need the survival kit)

well healthy as fuck detox diet.

exercise like mad within my capabilities making sure i dont 'overdo' it, the classic cfs fuck you up the ass killer.

dont fucking touch a drop of alcohol, if i get hung over ill just excuse myself and take some.


suffer like hell.


ill let you people (whoever reads these things) know how it's going. Probably in sentences of swear words but still.

wish me luck.