Lately I've been thinking of an ex of mine. I'm not sure how he gets into my thoughts, but it's been happening at a constant clip. Today I went to the sushi joint we had our first date at, and a wave of emotion just hit me... Its almost like I was that 18 year old again. I was nervous, elated, curious, and then the crash hit me. Emotional high to low in ten seconds. I won't go into how we ended because its a long story that doesn't really have an ending. Just that it did, and it was disappointing. Needless to say, I was a mess for a second. (ok more or less five minutes)
What really kicks my ass is that this was three years ago. I should of been over this two years ago at the very least. I've have one major relationship since then and I'm in one now. What the hell? Ever had the feeling that you don't really understand yourself fully? That's how I'm feeling right now. Currently in a state of confusion... great. Well maybe I can sleep this off.
Good night/ morning friends
What really kicks my ass is that this was three years ago. I should of been over this two years ago at the very least. I've have one major relationship since then and I'm in one now. What the hell? Ever had the feeling that you don't really understand yourself fully? That's how I'm feeling right now. Currently in a state of confusion... great. Well maybe I can sleep this off.
Good night/ morning friends
strider57:
My guess would be at 18 this was perhaps your first really serious emotional relationship? If so, in my experience it always stays with you at some level. Recently, I received a friend request on Facebook from my first love. She was my high school girlfriend, the first girl I ever slept with, and the girl that at the time I thought I'd be with forever. It was my fault we ended. I was young and dumb, worried about what I was missing out on instead of being grateful for what I had. I was shocked, amazed, and thrilled to receive her friend request 35 years after we ended. We've been chatting every day for the last month and although it's been great to have her back in my life, it's bittersweet as she's married with kids and as far as I can tell, that's something that's not going to change in my favor. I was married for 20 years before my wife died, and I've been single for the last ten years. During that time, I've dated and bedded a number of women, but I never was serious about any of them. During all this time I've been firmly resolved to remain single for the rest of my life, but I've got to admit, if there was a chance to have my first love back in my life. I'd take it without hesitation or reservation.