ladyexxa

well hmmm that image doesn't show up very well and it's too bad because it's damn funny.
yeah, and what else. i'm finished school tomorrow! then i start again on may 15 so wtf, some vacay. i'm taking an online photography course so i can still travel....because i'm going to california to housesit and dogcsit. poolside. i will be there for 2 whole months so i have lotsa people already scheduled for visits. honestly its going to be so nice to be in the sun, ahhhhh. the sun. this is me making it up to myself for not going to burning man this august...can't afford that, can't really afford this, but at least my only cost is my plane ticket.
these past few days have been teary because i left tore last thursday; it's catching up to me now. i'm already missing his habits and silly talk but i had to break it off because i was sick of being heartsick with his disrespect and rude behavior. i hate being alone. and it's only been what 5 days? i AM better off, and there are other people i'm interested in but meh, what of it? when you've been with a person for 18 months this stupid emotion bullshit is the shits.
o i'm not that miserable and i'll heal well i'm sure, it WAS me that did the leaving, gah gah gah blah,
boo hoo
i think what bugs me so much about being alone is that i have soooo much love and lust to give out, i get unhappy and squirrelly and unfortunately, cheap. gotta keep my knees together. well, i'll try.