time for an update.
i'm slowly collecting my stuff from his place, then i'm leaving him.
i'll give it a month.
it's so just so bleak right now that it's wearing me thin. time to cut out.
but maybe it'll be ok. this house he's taking care of, maybe that's what's making him unhappy. maybe when he goes back to his grandparents, things will be better.
i love him. that's what it comes down to. i've fallen in love with a man that has nothing to give me but grief. goddamit, why did i let my guard down.
no, you know what it comes down to; my fukkin lack of self worth, to believe in myself for long enough to pick up and move on when i'm unhappy with a situation. why do i stick around? i used to be so cut and dry. now it seems that with every successive relationship i let myself be pushed just that much further. i'll eat that much more shit.
every relationship has it's ups and downs, but it's been pretty lame for most of this month. till may. mid-may. that's it. show's over.
i'm slowly collecting my stuff from his place, then i'm leaving him.
i'll give it a month.
it's so just so bleak right now that it's wearing me thin. time to cut out.
but maybe it'll be ok. this house he's taking care of, maybe that's what's making him unhappy. maybe when he goes back to his grandparents, things will be better.
i love him. that's what it comes down to. i've fallen in love with a man that has nothing to give me but grief. goddamit, why did i let my guard down.
no, you know what it comes down to; my fukkin lack of self worth, to believe in myself for long enough to pick up and move on when i'm unhappy with a situation. why do i stick around? i used to be so cut and dry. now it seems that with every successive relationship i let myself be pushed just that much further. i'll eat that much more shit.
every relationship has it's ups and downs, but it's been pretty lame for most of this month. till may. mid-may. that's it. show's over.
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don't forget.