Things are starting to look up. I'm officially accepted into Drexel's Interdisciplinary Health Science Program. It's one year, it ill make make me more competitive for Medical School, theoretically. I'm gonna go home to talk to my dad about figuring out if I'm going to move to Philly or stay in Newark and commute. I'd rather not have to deal with moving. But I could see the commute having headaches of its own.
There's this boy, that when we kiss, it feels like a licking the charged end of a 9volt battery. He doesn't know what he wants out of whatever it is we have. I wrote a flash fiction story about it, I might post it. Lyrics arose from the story, but these lyrics might be too complex for the technopoppish style of the music I wrote. (I finally figured out how to use the vocoder, what do you expect to happen?)
There is this other boy that seems to want to court me traditionally. He even took me to meet his entire family at his grandfather's 98th birthday party. While boy one is sweet in his own right, I could spend days and days with this one without growing tired of his company---without those awkward silences that leave me wondering.
I don't think I really need to choose at this point, but I warned boy one about boy two. And that if he doesn't make up his mind, I refuse to hold out any longer. That'll be a shame if he decides to end our 8 month, commitment-free tryst. As Kiely William says, the sex was spectaclarrrr. (Disney is going to fire her, lol)
I also think I'm going to cancel my MGF account. I get very few hits, which is a bit of a blow to my ego as my roomie simultaneously raked in the dough. Also, it doesn't really feel right. I don't mind posing nude generally, but that particular site just makes me feel cheap, tawdry, and largely unattractive. I guess it doesn't help that my ex found my page and has been pestering me about pics ever since. Maybe if I get some less unsavory benefactors, I'll keep it up. But I highly doubt that.
There's this boy, that when we kiss, it feels like a licking the charged end of a 9volt battery. He doesn't know what he wants out of whatever it is we have. I wrote a flash fiction story about it, I might post it. Lyrics arose from the story, but these lyrics might be too complex for the technopoppish style of the music I wrote. (I finally figured out how to use the vocoder, what do you expect to happen?)
There is this other boy that seems to want to court me traditionally. He even took me to meet his entire family at his grandfather's 98th birthday party. While boy one is sweet in his own right, I could spend days and days with this one without growing tired of his company---without those awkward silences that leave me wondering.
I don't think I really need to choose at this point, but I warned boy one about boy two. And that if he doesn't make up his mind, I refuse to hold out any longer. That'll be a shame if he decides to end our 8 month, commitment-free tryst. As Kiely William says, the sex was spectaclarrrr. (Disney is going to fire her, lol)
I also think I'm going to cancel my MGF account. I get very few hits, which is a bit of a blow to my ego as my roomie simultaneously raked in the dough. Also, it doesn't really feel right. I don't mind posing nude generally, but that particular site just makes me feel cheap, tawdry, and largely unattractive. I guess it doesn't help that my ex found my page and has been pestering me about pics ever since. Maybe if I get some less unsavory benefactors, I'll keep it up. But I highly doubt that.
By what I read you have already started into one relationship with two guys. One for the thrill and one for the stability and trust. Neither one gives you a complete relationship and if you choose one at this point you will be disappointed later when you miss the other part of it.
I think you need a new one who has it all.